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What does 'I love you' mean?
Monday, June 07, 2010

Hey,
I'm really sorry.
Sorry I've not been the best.

For the past 4 months, we've been trying.
But its me who wasn't trying hard enough.
I tried to make you believe what I believed in.
I tried to make you believe in 'forever'.
I tried to make you believe that we're better off being together than as sisters.
I tried to make you believe in me.
I failed.

Its my fault that we're, or rather you are in this state now.
I am the root of all this shit.
For this, I apologise.
Maybe what you said is really true.
Maybe we really were not meant to be together.

I really failed.
Thinking I can change the way you see things.
I over-estimated myself.

You used to believe that love can overcome everything.
I still believe in that.
Its only a matter of trying again and again.

Like what I told you,
a relationship is about overcoming problems together.
Going through thick and thin as a couple.
Through this we'll emerge as a stronger couple.

But it seems that you're too stubborn to listen to that.

I guess the only thing I can use to describe myself now is a quote of what someone called me on the day of Montage 3:

A failed and useless guy.

I'm sorry.
I love you.

Chin Hong
^^V || 10:51 PM